hoong.zhan

One week i had been went out with her twice time , what can i said more AWESOME ler . Couple seats for cinema isn't that romantic ? For me it totally was cause is my first date , first girl , first time buy a couple seat like these movie does . Seriously , i'm a lucky ass to had you LOL , up side down the message it was you unlucky to had me as yours . I LOVE YOU bitchie.

I miss all the way i hug her and kiss her and she do the same way as I do to her , was being the sweet .LIMVOONTENG yes it was you .We could strong if we stand together as one , what else we still afraid of .

I love you , gurls .

The longest day i wear my school uniform , why ? Its the end of spm wuhu but which also mean the end of my school life , so it will be the last day of wore it .From 10am - 9pm almost half day .. its STINK ! so what , wear it till the last pay the final respect GUYED !

So , holiday huh ... its permanent .Gonna get a job and wait for the shit result come to mehhh : | ouchh .Gonna had some fun too .Eh let's plan lorhh ! IT'S PARTIEE time

kiss me

don't pinch LOL

13.12.2010
I mess up everything yesterday i was ... sigh* just messing up .I'm waiting up for the Friday everything count on that day , no matter how i'll give a explanation .I've hurt her too much i've need to stop that , never ever meant to harm her .Girl maybe I'm not really knew most your thing , but i knew the thing most is you , whenever you said "i'm okay" it does't mean you are at all , although my 6th sense is sucks but my 5th sense .

I made you tear so much , guess not the first time i did , had to change my darn mind that full of junk .I'm worried you right now .This that should't happen its been happen , i never wanna to hide from you at all just waiting the time to told you this .But i does't dare enough to speak out , i just afraid its bring hurt .Hold on there girl , i'm hanging there :)

14.12.2010

Chinese paper huh today .I've sleep when i meet the question that we don't each another LOL so what i did ..? I sleep zz for 15mins "fishing head" .Woke up and look at the time , almost there PUKE everything to fill in the blank .I'm still hanging you rite now .Are you okay there ? Guess it wont be, but i knew lots of your JIMUIS are by your side and i'm LEGA sikit a :) .Felt cold from your message i know you are trying to hide your mood from me , just don't wanna me to worried , no choice you make me understand you too much and i knew what your mood are =\ .Trust me i'm gonna make the explanation everything , no hiding .It's sad when you told me you wanna jump off the building from 14th floor i was wtf ! Don't lame and stupid ! I won't let you do that .

Guys shall never hurt the one that we loved . I just to HER =|

I just want you to be safe .Thats all i want nothing much .

15.12.2010

Yesterday i saw her blog ... she said she realize single is the better :| . Its sour inside deep my heart , i cant blame her cause i hurt her so much every single tears she drop .I don't feel wanna reply her text ... you knew why ? Cause i don't wanna you tears anymore but at the last you still , i'm just waiting the Friday that i had plan so so so long since last month .I miss her , hope she's alright in everything , i rather she's cry infront of me so that i can wipe her tear away , i'm such a failure guy , stop blaming yourself , i'm blaming myself cause i'm the one who made this such of things .I made it , i'll do anything to fix it .Even you'll hate me one day i'll still fix it :) .

Gonna go to some party soon .Really really cant enjoy later .2days more ... till Friday .C'mon time flew quickly i can't wait to tell her everything , there will be no hiding .

Party time my mind really just hanging your face god dammit don't know why .3 missed call i din't accept not din't is could't accept , not really that enjoy although i'm smiling but when i think what i did and what i said i just =| FUCK MYSELF , i create a damn big problem between us , we should be just fine like another are or maybe we are couple . Lots of thing i dint tell you not i don't wanna is just i wanna wait a right time to settle all of them .Anyway i saw you blog , "i sad " ? and you know why cause i'm the one whom make you sad , until this day i cant forgive my own i'm such a jackass . And we getting far and far-er each day =| , lots of guy cheer you up but i can't . 12.16am now means thursday it's coming tomorrow its Friday COME ON !

Nites to everyone .Sorry to you for everything i did , and i could't lend you my shoulder =\ .I'm hanging so freaking much ... no matter how happy i am , i just don't feel what i am , there without you =\ .

16.12.2010

Insomnia so much .Girl i feel you wanna givin' up , saw your facebook info its gone :\ .But i don't wanna give up , countdown for the biggest day Friday everything count on it no matter how was the result are i'll always respect you the love one and i'll be acceptable .Sorry that i lied my hp broken actually it dint i just wanna you chat with me face to face , i'm not meaning x wanna chat with , is just i afraid you tear and i just sit there and don't know .Guess we goin' to be back like normal once again and i'm not gonna step back what i've done before , its a lesson for me GREAT .Friday its coming , no worried .

TODAY !!

Its the day . Its today , everything come to right its today .Gonna surprise yawl .Decide to study for few hour just to wanted the time flew quickly .

Surprise erhmm half failure LOL . Finally i told her everything even the three words , that taking me for an hour to get my guts back :) she gave me warm when i was cold awh . It was just a moment ago i kiss her cheek twice :) i wanted to that for a long time ago. Sigh cant find another girl that beautiful that her , she's the prettiest ..FACT yawl x) .For me the night its wasn't a special for me cause i'm not the tuition's kid , can said i has no idea what they talkin' .Special for me its wear a formal clothes and meet her up and told up everything TRIPLE GUTS .AKU CINTA PADA Limvoonteng .OPPS ! easy hor just typing nia' .

Big different between type and speak but still i prefer speak out , cause its holy ! I'll wait for you answer girl , or i give you 2 choice to choose . Be my girl or i'll be your boy ? Simply pick one also nevermind .

Few days ago , having a terrible bad sign like watching too much of dramas i cant believe that i believe these , these crap stuff don't wanna wrote here LOL it sounds like ridiculous and lame HEH cause i thought there are some bad things happen to her ...drama meh ! Forget bout it , good things is she's fined there ..deep breathe like finally ARHHHH xO .

72hour huh missing you ?? Chehhh of cause i din't ... I DO like a freak ! Hahaa gonna admit these .Somehow , i'm really miss the way you calling me : | .Awh c'mon just a few days why i talked like FEW CENTURIES wtf ! perhaps it feel like erkkk :) .Everything count on this weeks ;D bless me

2mores paper to go and i'm a freeman ! It's time to say bye to school =\ awhh . 2 days for me to wear my school uniform and its over .

I never ever mean to make you tear :\ .Woke up at 4 and i just thinkin' about what i did yesterday .Guy shall never harm the love one with harm words

Account huh the different of the two class was like SKY and LAND .V1 was doing non-stop , my class was stop and sleep for an hours , i'm one of the same after i done all the question that i knew means i'm half of it LOL .Somebody puke and vomit behind me and something i thought was a damn prank ..the another time i moved my head over and it freaks me out its real vomiting , god bless him well .Get all the formula for nothing to use on them zzz.

She's went to KL today hmm gonna hella miss her .Heh could't said i understand her for 99% but i just understand her LOL. what the heck i'm trying to say ? I knew everything seems different after our conversation about "her" , the way she chat probably not same as before that .I understand her , can't admit all of it but know what she thinking ... i do know she does't look happy and well she said she's tired ...AWHH c'mon i can feel it wasn't xD .LOL i do not wanna exposed your feeling cause i do care about you , i don't wanna we ruin US just because this small matter :) , just don't wanna losting you .So what i did is , keep on chat like non-stop , i can see your perfunctory well I'M FIXING it xD

Well , too bad she cant make it to view this .Lol thought call was about another things well it wasn't :) ekk .

Not so good day in the morning , there is 2 event happening in my home street 1 house was having a funeral and the another house was wedding event ..huh ? I guess wedding's houses that should with joy face cant really have a joy face ..at all just bless both of the house .

Meet her today :D Well is not kinda of fate between us , but was being our control so do we meet :).Owh girl do you ever wonder your face is lovely for me , i could just give you a kiss on you cheek anytime i want , but kinda of public LOL . But too bad is we cant meet even longer a bit ...but not really bad at all , that we can even meet for a while ..satisfied my own .

I'm kinda a questioner just because i'm curious so much to get to knew it hee . But you knew what after i've telling all of my ... dumbies thing i'm kinda comfort and i don't even shy to tell you all of it , it just like set me free :D .

miss you damn cheek

I felt this was like the 1st time than the last time's first time , get it ? Great . Heh can't forgotten memories in mind like recycling .Ehee , think once time make me felt like I'm gonna borrow Doraemon's time machine travel back LOL lamee . Look toward , it does't need to ;D i MIGHT can be happen once more time , everything was under our control .

1st time went out with friend spent dinner time with them .Nearby my house down there the street the most famous food street ever well urhhmm MENGLEMBU "wai sek kai" oh i'm proud .Catch me to the damn C/c again for some crazy gaming stuff , it's really crazy ..but my mind was thinking about the moment with her .quite feeling bad ass on late reply her awh .

well ,let's call a day . YAWNNN !! time to the "PRECIOUS" bed AHA xD .

Bounce up from the bed , and think what's gonna happen today owhh she's coming lol , it was supreme mood . proud lah you , 1st girl whose come my house lol .Lots of rules that she mention , I was going to faint larh lol c'mon relax .I just could't relax well i'm not same guy like the another duhh ! After that she came upon, say HI to my grandma and next thing is walk around my house.Well the after THAT we go in to the room .. and HEYY ! don't misunderstand you might don't believe me , what is fact i'm saying is we din't do any CRAZY stuff in the room .First or false we just chat ...blah blahhh skip the part . Then i keep on stare on her round damn face funny huh lol .

Urgent my mind warns me don't do anything dumb .keep PRAY ! Control myself steady you zhan .But still i failed to control my emotion this moment i just straight 'K' on her cheek :) ..i asked myself what the heck am i doing , i'm not a beastie .But the feeling are just awesome cant denied .heh ! Don't break the feel lol.

Should proud to myself or shame on me ? Proud that i'm a story teller told everything heh questioning non-stop but answer are unable get with .Shame on me was urhmm how it describe this sentence it cant counted to be really are shame at all , just AM I TOO FAST ? lol we not even couple yet , but i felt we are .Soon we'll get what we want to be , times told everythin' in case spm 1st :) .

memorable

3/12/10

cause i'm doing thing that you could't imagine it .