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VTC ! Erkkkhmm :) .

this name make me crazy everyday , just her ! One and Only . LOl proud of it x)

Recalling back every dot dot drop drop / 点点滴滴 between us . The sounds is very ridiculous , we've been sad cause of each well , we got crazy .. LOL really can like 'from possible to impossible then return to possible' . very incredible only for me . Lots of incerdileeesss out there , we are just an tiny little ant to this each jehh , nothing to proud of but for us , either for me i would never forget every path . Sweet , Sour , Bitter , Spicy it just wont go tasteless :)

Sex topic erkkhmm yeh its very funny to chat with , behind me i was worried about you . I'm not supernatural zhan cant 24hour by your side . This 4months i had to protect her until she can protect her own . Sounds like DOG but i'm serious .

Friday :( whoaa laa .

Computer spoiled ? LOL it's change a little bit of things .Her style of message ngehh ngehh , cause when she was busy on something the message mode told me SHE WAS BUSY , now? No computer it SPOILED ;D AHAHAHAH ! Cant saw her face thats would be okay ..i got her photo still , take it out and look at the photo and said HI BABES ! nowadays late sleep cause of this that , probably is college stuff well acutually not that serious my course option wans't that many just 1 either 2 just afraid of the LOAN-ing .

4months left for me in my own hometown lol sounds like going such far , it was . 4months appreaciate it earn money now for college spend , KL's survive ain't easy , earn for it . And appreaciate time with VTC :) . Times are ticking .

Another nice quote i'm thinking for so long girl .VTC you are not a perfect person . HZC wasn't a perfect person too , we perfect when we comes together :)

VTC !

Yep early in the morning woke up and get bunch of message asking where am i ? Actually i just woke up and i almost forget what day is today are ... SPM's result ..shyt ! Get my ass up , as traditional i give my 'nenek moyang' with 'heung' to bless me . Hmppp deep breathe , don't get shit please .

Walk in to my school again , memories flashing .. wert ??!? no time for this run into the hall to get my sheet of my freaking whole life waiting for 3months now is the time . WOW an negative Apple , another wasn't that bad some i expect some i did really try my best , least not really that worst .Cause i'm wore a clothes 'Kiss me' LOL . I think i count to be satisfied and lucky , but the counselor told me my malay cant get goverment LOAN , college does't need it D: wtf ?!? Mood down , mood up need her huggies .

Things been passed nothing can do then , work harder for next step :) . Good luck for everything , next Spm-er do better than us then , and YOU Mc'VT :) .missin' her .

You don't know how lovely you are . Does't matter , cause i know :D .

Boss thanks for you Garlic bread :) ! LOL . Appreaciate it man , cause everytime i throw those garlic bread into the dustbin it just break my heart :( , is freaking delicious i had no freaking idea to those customer whos throw them away , anyway mm goi :) .

Yun loi so much question wondering you ;) , Lol i'll answer them all of em :) .

Days ago we should be argue on something that always make us turn into bad situation . Lol days later we turn around . Everytime we argue the situation erhmm just get worse even like 'its over' crapp . But the day after tomorrow , we always wanted to cool everything down no matter what heh this things happens many time also make us tired too argue who wants but argue is the part of things between us lol .

These day , i'm getting myself hanging out with bus errkkhmm , i know i know i'm form5 should have my Car license i don't felt shame to tell here that i'm failed twice , TWICE ! zhan are you kidding me , i'm freaking serious just almost there !! After i getting my license ... but sometime i rather i am superman that can FLY LIKE A G6 ! When she need me i'll be there lol , hurrhhh i just woke up from dreaming .. Arh yes continue the point , went up to meet a girlfriend LOL who else i only had 1 girlfriend je ma .

Owhh , would you feed me everyday . PLEASE !! eyes bling* bling* !! LOL and then she gave a greatest scar , its painful but is from her . I quite a crazier to said : i hope this scar never gone , so that i will always remember the person who did this thing to me , how she did it ? i cant exposed here . But its pain with sweet .YIIAYYY!! LOL . Hate that we always said goodbye to each another .

Hug me i felt warm :)

Is a day with unexpecting journey . My mom born my without good acting skill , i got no talent on acting myself so good i am when i'm not . On the whole case , i hope the clue that i find wans't right , hope it was wrong either i hope i don't know heh . All the time i thought status was about me make me crazy smile:) , there is something behind lol this happen like so easy , sometime thing really not happen like we want , sometime we cant control , well example JAPAN GREATEST DISASTER as you seen so many people lost their lives , if they expect bad things coming they gonna run to high hill to avoid from death , ;) such a nice example .

Next things i expect i gonna know what it was , i keep it .Now i wont ask anything to turn back like before cause is hardly we walk like a normal people , not MICHEAL JACKSON moon walk backward , i'm not MJ .I wont ask for anything change , but i got 1 thing man , please LIVE you LIFE ! Oh please .Still young to think about those crap , no one would die without anyone x( urghh y..ess .LOVE your life i god damn please appreaciate it man .Don't matter as a boyfriend or a boy's friend i'm still saying the samething please , love is beautiful .

Yes my mind had 1 question , on the post of HIM .Now i'm wondering who is him ?? LOL it does't matter cause i always know who is my HER cause i only had one of them . God give me good things now god wanna take it back from my hand .

Everything are connected , lol when i find out lots of the HIM was related in YOUR place .i'm started wondering this and that , question everywhere in my head of corner. How good if the HIM wont came in between TH(HIM)EM . Well is not end of world :') !! OPTIMISTIC my girl .

Life's always go on . Earth will keep spinning even TSUNAMI HITS JAPAN within 92hour .Not much i wish , is that wishes i wanted .no more :). Even you are happy or 'happy' i hope you pick the left one happy not "happy" .

Well , still HAPPY 3months Annivessary .

BE STRONG ALWAYS like your horoscope TAURUS . A real big cow girl , wont get hurt easily from now on , less of tear from you bling bling eyes , no more moody . Be the way you are :) .REMEMBER !

She's so a different , but i still can saw her lovely side babe . Kinda beh tahan her , when she keep running here and there like avoid me and suddenly and she's gone ...urhh oh my please stop that i'm not invisible man stop walk away from me , she just like 'LA LA LA' and keep walking ..roarrr !

At the time i was thinkin' 'alright why don't i just walk away too' but din't , i need her badly man :|.

I had to be the same way as she are i must BULL like a COW wth ! Is working at the time :) , no one said it was easy at all lol , cant give up .

She just like lots of things to said but hiding from me , maybe she does't want to talk to me or anything else ? I just don't know .DO MY BEST arr , she's my only girlfriend , i don't treat her like this way who i gonna treat this way to ? She just hating me when i punching wall to VENT . After 4' i had to home cause i had work at 6 times make me hurry i grab her FACE and i gave her my BULLEST + COW kisses thru her LIPS ! And then i'm gone , i should stay for longer cause the little girl eyes are red aww man .

2011 the greatest disaster of the year JAPAN earthquake ....DARN be right back !

Jezz , i always make things goes complicated . When the question come to myself "what is the problem" , my mind was blank and i really don't have any freaking idea , why ?? cause there is no any freaking problem , is called a creation , arhh thanks to me .

I .. ? Damn i don't know . After i start the job and everything starting changed us is TIME we used to be together and me emotional too much thing and mix up become another person that i don't know who is that ,i thought the problem come in on us, it wasn't it was been made .And i thought the way we chat is kinda changed really really think of to much crap .After i telling her , i don't know what else could happen , i hope everything come with peace .

Yes , babe i love you . And yet , i'm trying to pull us back . I should think twice when i know you are a emotional person too , i should think about you before i spoken my word babee .

I LOVE YOU ! not gonna change .

I'm lost . Not the lost without direction , just ..a simple 'lost' i don't freaking know how to explain .You are right everything starting to changes by now , the way we are might starting to be different just because TIME , sigh i don't know , let's make it right like the 1st time we are , i know much people date you including me , but it was full booking on your schedule LOL . I was thinking this nice quote "if one day i'm lost , and i had a COMPASS and YOUR PHOTO i would pick your photo cause i won't felt alone when i had one of these photo with me , any of them" such a nice quote man , but in fact you would pick both of them for sure ain't it .

Now only can have the only 5hours a day with you , but it wasn't , the time is ticking and it will just keep squeezing . Not much time we had now , well by now i won't expect for more but do many thing as we could , i miss her everyday WRONG serious a bit i shall said i never stop thinking her even dream , but the dream was sorrow again , the dream kill my sleep i was woken up :'| owhh yeh i would pick insomnia either NO DREAM , i hates dream , always making me struggling in the farking dream owh dammit .I've found myself a college , if my result wasn't a problem for me i'll be going in August :| not much time seriously not much time .

We are lucky man if we compared our own country to JAPAN we are much far away and proud to said we are lucky , 8.9 magnitude can't imagine if Malaysia happen this crap .

Goodnights . Babe please don't let me go .

Few day without online . When i online back again i felt REVIVE !! Waw , these day working are OT ..over time actually LOL . wasn't that bad , my boss are quite a nice person good to chat with him to share some chef experience :) . Yesterday is special i felt i'm LOST , cause no online , no meet her for so long gashh , but i'm taking her photo everywhere lol not lost completely yet , just like a compass no no no ! updated the photo just likea GPS for me when we are lost ...wtheck i'm talkin' !

OUHH !! I miss her freaking the supreme muchhh ...see what i type maximum subscribe the way i miss her still not enough ...cause they is no another word to describe my feeling of missing her . LOL :p

Stalk me stalk me HAH ! Actually there is a meaning , easy i just want you to stalk me more my stalk sounds kinda SPYING my mean want you to know my stuff first lol yes . HAH i know there is no rules for must to see as nessasary but i need you to see it 1st just you :) .Skype but you does't look happy kinda moody , but you was chatting with friends , lol don't worries i'm not blaming anything or anyone , imma expressing :) .My time to see wasn't much after i had a job , happy to had a job not to staying home , wasn't happy is one thing is i only had my 5hour with you . Don't moody after see-ing this post , this wasn't blaming anything or anyone yes i repeat again . Worries you to think so much , before i was think so much too . changing :)

What happen ? I don't know . When you on call with friends you was smiling but ...i don't know .Alright there would nothing no more and no more worries i have found the answer . mind are clear ! and clean back on mood and waiting for working mood to on later :)

Back home at 11 earlier home today cause the business there really wasn't that well , i've sitting there and talking with the colleague for about 2hour gashhh , even there's a tv for me til the news finish broadcasting .And finally it walk in a customer just DA BAO's coffee ice grrrhh , and 9pm come another customer they only order drinks and just sitting there till we closed the shop .Somemore raining , i can see thru the boss's eye wasn't that happy at all .Hope tomorrow more than 10tables i rather busy for a while than sitting there for nothing .

Home sweet home . Babe sweet Babe ! i miss her freaking much . First day of work and is so right in the time , the customer quite a lot today , and it so making me nervous . The job not bad , learn from below before climb to the top yes i'll keep this in my mind NO , i keep HER always in my mind ,colleague not bad especially the boss and also he's a CHEF ;) completely my IDOL half of it .

Standing there , thinking about her was the only way for me !! Yawnnn ! now i'm tired . My time i passing WORTH no wasting now :) .great ! continue this post tomorrow . No more nightmare if did please the nightmare was only about me , no another person or HER .

Yesterday an unknown number calling . Hmm Hello ? This is Wakaka Cafe is this 'CHZ' (short form is my name actually) , is this person interview for job last time . I answer : YEH ! , okay come at 6pm to start you job tomorrow . :) yeh i had job now , 1st job ever LOL and i don't need to stay home to pass my boring life , gonna puke .

Nightmare is sucks . I rather the nightmare is about me , this is the 2nd time i dream about her in my nightmare .Is horrible :( , whos ever dream this kinda of dream like your love one gone , you'll understand my feeling , errkkhmmm better not to .I prefer you guys sweetdream ever :)

6pm gonna join WAKAKA CREW !

She'll became my robot girlfriend soon if she still less of resting .Still i miss the way she sleep infront of her computer ...and this only happen once , sounds like a shooting star rare happen stuff .I admit that i mad on her , because she does't really care herself sometime , i'm nagger weird to be a nagger i think that too , but when i nag her i never feel weird .

Wert suppose to be ugly means , oh mann . If god give a chance to exchange YOU to Me and ME to YOU , you'll find out how lovely yourself ...perhaps your lovely only i can see . shut up and stop saying yourself BAD ! When you're not . Love yawl !