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Cold blooded ? heh she's the one who give me warm , that warm i could not forget that . Dumb face ? She hate that does't she ? :( . What next happen , i don't know i would't given her up not now not this time .Forgive me may you ? HAHA funny right ? I'm start this now i'm askin' for forgive .You won't alone just like a song 'my love with stay with you' . We in the pain situation .

You'll be in my heart

He mess up her life . He deserve to get delete .

Forgive him by doing those non-sense thing without any reason . He is just an jerk doin' such thing with not his first time .I'm starting afraid , afraid of me keep being like that you'll get more suffer , i'm selfish mess up you life hehhh ;\ thats him , babee if you see this ...huhh i'm stupid rite ? doin' such stuff .

what's wrong with me .i have a nice plate and the only one i destroy it by my own hand , my own hand , i ruined it :D smart meeeeeeeeeee . say i'm smart ! FUCK YOU AHZHAN

2011 lots thing happen , is really quite a lot , a year of emo . sometime i'm one of them , sometime i'm lucky i'm not one of them , buddies break up with their love one . Even i'm not one of them but i can said we are lucky but is so scary for me to seeing them from couple into a friend , what if the same nightmare on them that happen the same thing on me =\ , yes me and her both of US were never could believe on FOREVER cause is a kinda of naive word , don't believe but HOPE .

The worst part is , when both of them still loving the each but had to break . I'm so serious , this is a biggest nightmare of me .Now , i'm not the worst but my friend .Bless them , bless me , bless the world .

Alright gotta fix the I/C and retake my undang test , get a freaking job in the kitchen if can well i'm so willing to cook even i sweat like hell i'm still love the job , don't ask why , i don't even had the answer too , nowadays at my cousin house i learn some little skills , is a good start for me .

Valentine .
I've been single for so long , lol been jealous everyone outing with their girl but i'm just staying home facing the computer , but i'm different this year of valentine , i got her with me thru the day . But i'm a bad guy lol , i'm not prepare anything for the valentine , No flow , no choc even a tiny bear but i really try best on the urgent moment . Use my token to get her favourite POOH , failed . Go in the watson to get a POOH out of stok , failed LOL . My mind was thought of flower , but i din't is LUCKY ..cause she hate flower so much , she gift me a Tee these are some word "kiss me" , i wear it and wish to let her do to me as the word everyday ;D .GRAB her hand and ask her to pick those CUTE pooh inside the D'garden there , lol she deny with all cost .

Sorrow at the end but i guess forget it better :) , nothing is better than happy .ILovehersomuch

Sigh.why don't the damn Cake shop hired my , the salary that I fill not really that big is a nice price aw c'mon i got the heart to learn , urghh! Find again lorhh . Boring stuck up home waiting the mushroom pop from my head ... POP* !

Today Cho8 worhh , bai tin gong ... this year special , cause i went to her house YEP i'm "blogging" in the house in her room with her computer typing using HER keyboard .I'm a bit nervous but SOMEONE are more nervous than me a lot LAWL!! Yehh i'm looking at her face rite the heck now , but my character is different I AM A TUITION's friend of her wooppss , but the plan was i am a YUK CHOY ZAI erkk LOL ! No problem lahh . Point is to see her mar .

Is outnumber here , i thought here 20person , i guess NOT ...is between 40-50 kinda ..WHOA ! Still blogging BE RIGHT BACK !!

Hell yeh , got neeaby my house asking for job cause they hiring Cake Baker ..erkhmm is newbie anyway , the only funny things is she ask me to fill up the paper , when it asked about the salary that i want $$ lol , at the end i wrote 500 normal price lorh for newbie , don't open ''LION BIG MOUTH'' . Waiting calls ~

Yesterday aha i guess i'm a bit angry cause she's said something but meanwhile made her unhappy too erkk . Just i thought of that , don't know . Although i'm angry but i really love her . Now i just blame myself not driving licence yet harhh ! lol .

Valentine's coming in , is shame to said i'm not really ready for something to her . But she did something to me , but the thing i don't want to get it 'only' she knows what it mean . LoL but nothing on valentine is does't matter , i'm not materialistic , she by my side i'm just bliss enough . What i ask for more ?

What happen to you harnie ? I really can felt you are moody so much . Something in you mind stressing you , mind share to me ? Although you said you are okay , but does't like that .

It's miracle when i see you smile , no matter how moody i am i'll smile too :)

I'm back to my own blog lots of things happen but i just gonna shorten it :) .Between us had much more crisis things happen to us , and almost make us far apart . First time without her 4days sounds like 4weeks either 4months , it past was longer than snail moving , but at least the snail still moving thou slow .On the 'case' i had never blame to anyone , but i just try escaped like a cowards but it won't be long to be like this , after the day we had to meet up before that night .. i pick up the call everything seems normal , yeh good things cause we both trying to over this SORROW days pick us back in to the HAPPY .When after the call , my mind was only her and how i gonna face her tomorrow , i was just like first time DATE GIRL heartbeep , slowly i control myself and put my head on her shoulder , that don't make any sense but i calm with her shoulder . Back to the cinema , i mean go in the cinema , AHA i felt i am a girl more than her , i want her shoulder so much .

Chinese new year reunion dinner that night .Wuu i've change the previous year i just facing the computer so much , such a wasted la , missed all the nice food of steamboat but this time i've non stop eating like my stomach would never satisfied until i vomit xD , i never stop chewing things in my mouth until supper i'm still eating NO STOP . We put the lucky lantern , actually is such a boring things when you saw another people doing , but is different when you doing writing wishes on the lanten . my wish WORLD PEACE , forget it if you are seeing TV news everyday .