I mess up everything yesterday i was ... sigh* just messing up .I'm waiting up for the Friday everything count on that day , no matter how i'll give a explanation .I've hurt her too much i've need to stop that , never ever meant to harm her .Girl maybe I'm not really knew most your thing , but i knew the thing most is you , whenever you said "i'm okay" it does't mean you are at all , although my 6th sense is sucks but my 5th sense .
I made you tear so much , guess not the first time i did , had to change my darn mind that full of junk .I'm worried you right now .This that should't happen its been happen , i never wanna to hide from you at all just waiting the time to told you this .But i does't dare enough to speak out , i just afraid its bring hurt .Hold on there girl , i'm hanging there :)
14.12.2010
Chinese paper huh today .I've sleep when i meet the question that we don't each another LOL so what i did ..? I sleep zz for 15mins "fishing head" .Woke up and look at the time , almost there PUKE everything to fill in the blank .I'm still hanging you rite now .Are you okay there ? Guess it wont be, but i knew lots of your JIMUIS are by your side and i'm LEGA sikit a :) .Felt cold from your message i know you are trying to hide your mood from me , just don't wanna me to worried , no choice you make me understand you too much and i knew what your mood are =\ .Trust me i'm gonna make the explanation everything , no hiding .It's sad when you told me you wanna jump off the building from 14th floor i was wtf ! Don't lame and stupid ! I won't let you do that .
Guys shall never hurt the one that we loved . I just to HER =|
I just want you to be safe .Thats all i want nothing much .
15.12.2010
Yesterday i saw her blog ... she said she realize single is the better :| . Its sour inside deep my heart , i cant blame her cause i hurt her so much every single tears she drop .I don't feel wanna reply her text ... you knew why ? Cause i don't wanna you tears anymore but at the last you still , i'm just waiting the Friday that i had plan so so so long since last month .I miss her , hope she's alright in everything , i rather she's cry infront of me so that i can wipe her tear away , i'm such a failure guy , stop blaming yourself , i'm blaming myself cause i'm the one who made this such of things .I made it , i'll do anything to fix it .Even you'll hate me one day i'll still fix it :) .
Gonna go to some party soon .Really really cant enjoy later .2days more ... till Friday .C'mon time flew quickly i can't wait to tell her everything , there will be no hiding .
Party time my mind really just hanging your face god dammit don't know why .3 missed call i din't accept not din't is could't accept , not really that enjoy although i'm smiling but when i think what i did and what i said i just =| FUCK MYSELF , i create a damn big problem between us , we should be just fine like another are or maybe we are couple . Lots of thing i dint tell you not i don't wanna is just i wanna wait a right time to settle all of them .Anyway i saw you blog , "i sad " ? and you know why cause i'm the one whom make you sad , until this day i cant forgive my own i'm such a jackass . And we getting far and far-er each day =| , lots of guy cheer you up but i can't . 12.16am now means thursday it's coming tomorrow its Friday COME ON !
Nites to everyone .Sorry to you for everything i did , and i could't lend you my shoulder =\ .I'm hanging so freaking much ... no matter how happy i am , i just don't feel what i am , there without you =\ .
16.12.2010
Insomnia so much .Girl i feel you wanna givin' up , saw your facebook info its gone :\ .But i don't wanna give up , countdown for the biggest day Friday everything count on it no matter how was the result are i'll always respect you the love one and i'll be acceptable .Sorry that i lied my hp broken actually it dint i just wanna you chat with me face to face , i'm not meaning x wanna chat with , is just i afraid you tear and i just sit there and don't know .Guess we goin' to be back like normal once again and i'm not gonna step back what i've done before , its a lesson for me GREAT .Friday its coming , no worried .
TODAY !!
Its the day . Its today , everything come to right its today .Gonna surprise yawl .Decide to study for few hour just to wanted the time flew quickly .
Surprise erhmm half failure LOL . Finally i told her everything even the three words , that taking me for an hour to get my guts back :) she gave me warm when i was cold awh . It was just a moment ago i kiss her cheek twice :) i wanted to that for a long time ago. Sigh cant find another girl that beautiful that her , she's the prettiest ..FACT yawl x) .For me the night its wasn't a special for me cause i'm not the tuition's kid , can said i has no idea what they talkin' .Special for me its wear a formal clothes and meet her up and told up everything TRIPLE GUTS .AKU CINTA PADA Limvoonteng .OPPS ! easy hor just typing nia' .
Big different between type and speak but still i prefer speak out , cause its holy ! I'll wait for you answer girl , or i give you 2 choice to choose . Be my girl or i'll be your boy ? Simply pick one also nevermind .
Surprise erhmm half failure LOL . Finally i told her everything even the three words , that taking me for an hour to get my guts back :) she gave me warm when i was cold awh . It was just a moment ago i kiss her cheek twice :) i wanted to that for a long time ago. Sigh cant find another girl that beautiful that her , she's the prettiest ..FACT yawl x) .For me the night its wasn't a special for me cause i'm not the tuition's kid , can said i has no idea what they talkin' .Special for me its wear a formal clothes and meet her up and told up everything TRIPLE GUTS .AKU CINTA PADA Limvoonteng .OPPS ! easy hor just typing nia' .
Big different between type and speak but still i prefer speak out , cause its holy ! I'll wait for you answer girl , or i give you 2 choice to choose . Be my girl or i'll be your boy ? Simply pick one also nevermind .
